Pieces of October
2003-10-21

i'm updating my resume today. not much to do but add the most recent gig to the work history, since i've settled into a functional format given that i've not actually worked in my given vocation in over two years. though adding the design competition did feel really good. a strange sense of satisfaction regarding what i've been up to for the last six months or so. i'm thinking that i might temp a bit. though i'm not sure i can be bothered. do you know how hard it is not to spend money when you've got the whole day to yourself to wander about and such? especially on a gorgeous day like today. but now i'm inside. i did manage to get out for some coffee but as of now, i still haven't been bothered to bathe.

i was set up with this friend of a friend about a month ago and we've been "hanging out". i specify hanging out, because we have not in fact been dating. last night, we checked out 'pieces of april' at the sunshine, which is conveniently for both of us, in the neighborhood. i've been of two distinct minds about this situation. when the evening involves lively meals at hot spots, snuggling at the movies and hot, hot sex like last wednesday, i'm all for it. when the evening involves inattentiveness, awkward non-responsiveness, and a goodbye hug involving a pat on the back like last night, i'm kinda turned off. the "i'll call you later in the week" seemed strangely out of place and though i don't doubt that he will, i'm beginning to question the point. in fact, i almost said "why?"

oh, and the cute guy that i responded to, even though my computer crashed the first time which i would normally take as a very bad sign but this time just scrunched up my will even more, promptly got back to me suggesting that indeed we should meet. considering that the pictures of me are fairly unrepresentative (i normally photograph pretty well though recently the lens ain't been to kind to me), the "i think you're pretty cute" was grist for my mill. judging by his snaps, if we do manage to hook up, he could very possibly be the best looking guy i've ever. and that is saying something.

i picked up ladytron's softcore jukebox, which is basically a mix tape of new wave and new new wave faves. can someone explain how the source and candi staton's 'you got the love' is still so fucking phenomenal after all these years? occasionally, i too, call out master make me new! ok?! oh, and then there is ladytron's cover of tweet's 'oops (oh my)'. pure genius. all thrashing guitars and disinterested monotone. as the nme would say, VITAL.

i've been thinking very seriously about taking my earring out. it's been up there in the ol' cartilage for over three years now, but i feel sort of over it. i'm feeling rather ambivalent regarding the eyebrow piercing as well. maybe i'm done with the whole pierced thing. when i got the eyebrow done, a close friend was like 'you're hooked. you're gonna be that clean-cut forty year old guy with a dozen genital piercings'. not likely. i wanted to get that ankle band tattoo for a long time too, but interest there is waning considerably... maybe i've outgrown it. that seems so condescending. besides, a bunch of barrel of monkeys hooked together around my ankle still sounds cool. oh, did i mention the haircut awhile back by the guy who used to date madonna? it was all i could do, not to ask. how cheesy would that have been? it is pretty chopped up, which is what i wanted, but i still can't figure out what to do with it. it never seems sufficiently messy or not messy, if that makes sense. somewhere in between, which i guess is preferable. but sometimes i have a difficult time settling into imperfection and the perfection that can represent. wow, how deep.

-finn


Previously:
Shiny Happy Person (or Something Like That) - 2005-08-19
Having Trouble Saying What I Mean With Dead Poets and a Drum Machine - 2005-08-14
Let's Rock! - 2005-07-27
Knock Me Right Off My Feet - 2005-07-22
Play or You'll Never Know - 2005-07-14